Sometimes it's like, dreadful, but other times it's cool
My mom passed away in January this year which made events this year go more slowly and dreadfully. Let's not say how she passed away and let her rest in peace.
Humans have to move on, especially ones like me who tend to hold on to the past. I have to move on.
Somewhere around June, my dad decided we could all use a vacation to drown out the sorrows. We went to a semi-private beach. It was wonderful and delightful with the sun and the sky just smiling down on you. But when you're like me, you tend to smile then stop and think, 'If mom was still here, would she be smiling like me too?' And that's when the water-works threaten to break out.
Having watched the waves crash and pull back into the ocean, it's like nature overwhelming you with its beauty. And when you look far ahead to the end of the horizon where the sky meets the sea; you'd feel your heart chase after it but never reaching it. Sometimes it feels like it's only days away where in fact, you can never, ever touch it and that's when you know, yeah, nature is pretty cruel like that. But the the waves draw near and crash on you and you feel every emotion in your body drain away as the waves go down, you'd realize, yeah, nature is pretty awesome. Then you look to your sides and you notice little pacts of garbage on the sand and you'd sigh, who did this?
The beauty of the beach is that, it has the effect of cleansing the soul. It drains the sorrows and takes it back to its vast territory. When you cry in the salt water and feel the sting in your eyes, you let the tears find its way down your cheeks and into the sea. When you scream to the ocean and feel the breeze brush through your hair, you let your scream go and listen to it be carried away. And when you close your eyes and open them again to watch the sun set, you'd feel yourself calming down and relaxing, eventually drained. The next day you wake up early to catch the sunrise, you'd feel that rise in confidence, strength and faith in your soul, then you say, 'It's time to move on.'
